fear takes over
i sit in my bed and close my eyes tight as can be, and yet it does nothing. my uneven breathing - heaving and sucking in the air - gives me away. my voice shakes and i can't think of a reply to anything that is said... only what i am scared of. which is 75% of everything. i realize i am unreasonable, i realize i do not deserve what i have, and i realize that those who have me deserve much better. and i'm scared. |
2008-02-18 at 2:04 p.m. |